Because I was so desperate for some semblance of a “normal” physique, I opted for fat grafting in lieu of implants, as I thought it was a healthier option. After the second procedure I had complications and was diagnosed with yet another recurrence, stage III with lymph node involvement. Now, not only did my body look worse than ever, but I was fighting for my life once again. In that moment I said enough is enough. I had been so desperate in my quest for a desirable body that I continued to assault and mutilate it. Finally, it became clear that my vanity might end up killing me.⁠
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In the year following this recurrence I went soul searching to redirect my focus on emotional healing and self-love. During this process I had many revelations and a powerful awakening.

I discovered that I am so much more than my body and that my true sexiness radiates from my soul. Cancer unexpectedly guided me through this transformation. I never really loved and accepted myself before cancer and now I do wholeheartedly.

The search for my true sexiness cracked me wide open to reveal my soul, the non-material essence of who I truly am. This is what really matters. This is what is sexy. ⁠
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From this life changing realization, Sexy Soul Search was born, a spiritual journey of self-discovery that guided me to a place of deep understanding and appreciation of who I truly am. It is now my privilege to help fellow thrivers discover their confidence and true sexiness on a deep soul level and to fully accept and honor themselves just as they are.